Living In Someone's Heart (Poem)

I used to reside in your heart,
You were the one, who first gave me the keys to the door,
You told me I filled up the entire space inside,
You insisted that I was the only one meant for you.

'Be my last,' you'd whispered.
I closed my eyes and silently echoed those words,
Tenderly tracing the imaginary outlines of your heart with my fingers
I always loved hearing your slow, steady heartbeat.

It reminded me of the unceasing rhythm of the ocean waves
That will go on forever until the end of time
In a way, I'd hoped our love could be like that too,
Silent, strong and unchanging.

And when a shooting star dropped from the sky that very day,
I believed in fairy tales.

'I wish I could stay in your heart always,' I whispered in my mind.
You must have heard my thoughts, because it's bad luck for someone to know your wish
Mine never came true.

I think I wished so hard until my heart contracted and dropped out onto the grass
I didn't see you crushing it with your foot until it was too late.
Or perhaps you really didn't see what you were stepping on until you heard the sound of my heart b r e a k i n g.

But I found myself stuck,
In a corner that steadily grew smaller
Till the day you came to me, saying,
'You don't belong here any longer'

And suddenly,
I'm standing outside,
Gazing sadly at the four walls of your heart
(sometimes, I don't think I was ever in there)

I wanted to ask 'Why' one and a million times over
You said I kept repeating my questions
But you never gave me the proper answer
To the only question that I really wanted to know.

Was it because I didn't dare sing for you,
Or because you never really loved me.?