Sub-Conscious (Poem)

They say
Dreams reflect your deepest longings
Twisting reality and fairytale around
Its sadistic, little finger

Sub-conscious unenlightened,
I struggle to find my way out of the dark
But these buried secrets are dragging my eyelids down
And I'm falling deaf to the voice of reason

It's growing harder to deny the truth
When I'm already denying a part of me
The part that still wonders, longs and misses
The part that never did make any sense


Wake up, please
No one else can teach you how to open your own eyes.

what I need is something which doesn't exist.
it never did,
so I never will.